The Truth Is
The truth is there was a point in my life where I never thought I would make it to this point in my life. I’m grateful. But hateful is how I used to be, filled with anger and addicted to danger is how I would choose to be. Filled with pride inside taking my life into my own hands making demands pretending to be a grown man when really I was a hurt little boy that would go berserk every time he couldn’t have his toy. I was consumed with me, and having to have it my way was the person I assumed to be. All the while unaware or didn’t care of my surroundings that I ended up hurting everyone around me. But the truth is that’s where God found me. He blessed me with a mirror that would paint the picture much clearer. I found out it was me when He allowed me to see the brokenness and hopelessness that was in my self. And truth is I was helpless, abusing all the help that was given to me from me living selfish. Then in came the pain, a product of the realization of the devastation from a life lived in vain, and therefore I embraced the rain. At the time it would be my only gain. It was due to me from all my foolery, and plus, hey, it was something new to me. But it still wasn’t true to me. Self-inflicted and drug addicted but then once again that’s when God came through to me. He showed me that I was made for more but for some reason I still felt safe hiding behind that door. It was fear of the unknown, and until the known became too much to bear, all along the Holy Spirit was there. Displaying His fruit by being patient and kind, not judging me but nudging me towards surrender with keeping Jesus on my mind. It was divine. And the time that I have today is only because He never left me along the way changing this heart into the person that you see today. And the truth is that I say to this to say that the only way is Jesus Christ. The God of the universe who came down to earth as the ultimate sacrifice and then raised Himself back to life. There is no other, and He did it so He could be a friend who sticks closer than a brother. In all the dirt, through all the hurt, and the moments of despair He is there. And He’s not going anywhere, so if in your heart you start to hear a knock at the door, then open it up and give Him all you got. Receive what He’s done and believe that the best is yet to come. In Jesus mighty name. Amen.
It Was Christ
Lord if I could only come to know all that was in the holy glow of the light that You filled me with that night. It was truly done, and there was no reason for me to run other than to better prepare me for what was to come. It was the spirit of wisdom and understanding, counsel and might with knowledge and fear of the Lord as my delight. It was purpose and vision with heart circumcision and plenty wrongs made right. It was buffering for the suffering and the faith to fight with fellowship for the lonely nights. Looking back all along it was Christ. Lord Jesus continue to reveal Your mystery until everything else becomes history. It’s been a process to bring it forth as I walk by faith carrying a torch being a light for the world to see as I learn more and more about how to be broken and open showing the human side of me. It’s our weaknesses that will lead us to our greatest achievements, which means there’s a benefit that comes with admitting it and giving it to the Lord. And why does it seem to be the junk that we hoard when it can be the very thing that frees up the space for Him to rightfully take His place? It was my loneliness that led to His holiness, the pride and independence that led me to reside in a place of total dependence, and literally a death sentence that brought forth life through repentance. Now before we end this, I need to make notice that it wasn’t me but the Holy Spirit who wrote this. And He says not to focus on the gloom and doom, or the darkness that may loom, but to look beyond to a King and His kingdom with a Bridegroom is coming soon. This is a call from the One who’s over it all not to be afraid, but to be aware so that you can prepare and dress accordingly.
Sincerely,
the Lord and me.
#inJesusmightyname
The Meaning of Life
Life, what is the meaning of something so precious and impactful but yet often taken for granted? A gift freely given but at times the way that we’re living can have the Creator of it all feeling slanted? Planted, was the stake in the ground where every mistake known to man was found, covered in blood forming a picture documented from scripture speaking of a perfect love. Just look above. Do you see a Savior suspended in the air with a neighbor opposite from and next to His pierced side? On which one do you reside? If I’m being honest I can be both in an instant. Product of my own attitude from losing gratitude and now all of a sudden the Father’s feeling distant. My God, my God why have You for forsaken me? I’ve already surrendered my heart to every place that You’re taking me but at times I feel like You only see the fake in me. I can become too focused on self rather than the One who came to help and with deception running at an all time high, I wear truth like a belt and look to no one else but the One who holds every tear that I cry. So what is the meaning of life? The gleaming of light directing our sight past the stealing, killing and destruction. The evening and night, it’s all just part of the flight if we continue to follow His instruction. The reconstruction of a lost soul who fell in a hole and didn’t know a way out, to a hand that was given from the One who is risen who now shows others the way out. It’s crazy how things play out. But then again hey, that’s life. It was never meant to be kept to our self. An intangible wealth stored up on a shelf when we learn to lay it down for the sake of someone else. And who should that be? Our risen Savior whose image reflects every living neighbor no matter the tone of our skin or the zone that we’re in. Deep down we all share a home within, diversity bringing forth unity with many different parts of a body coming together forever but it starts with you and me. And that is the meaning of life.
